Why is that when you think you have fallen in love it turns out that your perfect man is no where to be found? I've always thought that when you are in love with someone you should feel like your happy and just full of joy. However, that is not the case in my part i feel depression, loneness, heartache, jealousy, longing to be with someone who would love me back and decieved/betrayed. Why should a love be filled with bitterness and longing for something more than what you have? No one deserves to go through those feelings when they are or think they are in love!
I wonder what true love is to feel like when someone wants to give you the world and shows you with all of there heart that they are crazy for you. Someone who loves your faults and weaknesses rather than use them against you. Even when someone tells you that your weak and that you are stupid just because your right about what is actually taking place at the time or that you hit the right spot to show them that you've caught them in a lie. Someone who will be there when you need them and not tell you to go the f**k away and leave them alone.
I say to you that you need someone who would be a great influence on you and not drag you down where you know its wrong yet you are not able to find a way out without having to hurt the people you love dearly or who is and are close to your heart. In my expreciences i have found this all to be the way they work to make sure that they dont lose what they want to keep and so that they are able to do what they please and have their victum with the influence that they are just theirs and they are not able to think on their own. It sounds sad and unbelieveable yet you have to realize that there are people out there like that and unfortunely i have found one of these types of guys and it is proving difficult to get away when he has drilled into my head that i love him. However, in reality that is just not as true as when this situation has taken place.